The Process of Light

04/01/2011 Human Observations

The days have passed whereby I was once comforted in indecision. Clarity of purpose does not resemble a chime of sudden enlightenment, but rather the understanding of a “thousand yard stare”, whereby my sentinel’s gaze at the horizon of possibilities notes any enemy deviance from that which is perceptually acceptable. My provisions were given to me to be utilized as they were taught to me by the Spirit of God. The ability to discern this teaching is a comprehension that is un-teachable in human academia, and un-learnable by an un-believer; because I cannot believe in redemption accept that I first recognize my personal human insufficiency to comply with the instructions of God. Prior to God’s forgiveness, I could not find it within me to resist my desire for personal glory, arrogantly boasting myself as the appropriator of all that is fulfilling in my life. I heaped to myself the praise of those around me, inappropriately conducting myself as a drunkard filled with the wine of my accomplishments. Yet, acknowledging that all that I have was made available to me (by the owner of all things), I gratefully bow my heart to the creator and giver of all gifts: not the least of which is His forgiveness of my offences against Him, and all that is His; reconciling me with His favour.